Not yet, although it is the most obvious solution. I've been lucky enough he's been busy as of late, so I don't think he noticed my absence. I still find myself hesitating, however.
I've gotten used to protecting Leo during our work. It's hard to comprehend that I may turn against him.
[ he's inclined to say that people will notice, that people are less blind to others backing off than Zed might know, but that's saying and assuming too much, so: ]
I see. That's also understandable.
But things will be easier to handle if your friend knows what to expect. I'm guessing that he isn't the type to hold these things against you.
Sorry. This is rare for me. The answer is clear, yet I'm dragging my feet. For a world less chaotic than what I'm used to, I've felt the most conflicted here.
[This would be 5000x more embarrassing if they were face to face. He's really not one to vent in this way, but he's on the more desperate side. Better than drowning his woes in alcohol.]
That's correct. Leo is a good friend, and I'd hate to slip up. He's capable in his own ways, but he's not a fighter. I hope similar misfortunes don't befall you and your friends here. It's frustrating, to say the least.
I've started saving up for a sailboat since I'm rarely in my apartment. An additional bonus may be as a getaway from people during the duration of my moonblessing.
[ listen, Barnaby is aware how embarrassing things like this are, NO JUDGMENT... ]
Trust me, I believe when you say that you'd rather not run into your acquaintances during the moons. And that providing an explanation is difficult. My situation is less inconvenient than yours, but it's still unpleasant— I understand not wanting to burden others with it.
Your solution is fine. But, again. It would be better to let your friend know, first.
The cards this world has dealt is certainly not in our favor. However, if I had to choose between blood-lust or sexual urges, I'd choose the latter. I'd much rather have sexual partners than to inflict needless violence upon others. More unfortunate that I'll fall away from Master's ideals with either course.
Yes, that will be the plan once I've acquired it or another place to take off to. [Exiling himself is fiiiiine.]
Neither option is particularly appealing, but I guess I can see your point.
[ it takes a bit of time before the next text follows; it's obvious that Barnaby had to think before he sent it out. ]
You're not obligated in any way to take my advice, but please make sure to let someone know before you leave, and after you come back. And if your Master's ideals don't apply here, I wouldn't let it bother you too much.
Then again, I don't mean to pry. Please feel free to disregard this if I have.
You did not pry. I laid out the matter, so it's fair.
I'll certainly take your advice for notifying others. I would not want anyone to think I've abandoned them. As for the other, I must think on it. I understand what you mean by it, but it fundamentally questions my dedication to him.
[Because heaven forbid if he becomes so lowly as Zapp.]
[ somehow, this text leaves a sour taste in his mouth.
instinctively, he thinks "if this is enough for your master to question your dedication to him, he doesn't deserve your dedication", but he can appreciate that this is a personal issue that he's still working through, and that he's projecting.
hm. ]
Thank you for listening.
At any rate, if you want to vent some steam or use your frustration in a productive way, you know how to reach me. I've yet to run into a sparring partner as helpful as you, after all.
You said your friend's name was 'Leo', right? I'll keep that in mind, too.
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[ trust and believe that Barnaby can relate, and does. ]
Have you spoken with your friend at all about your concerns? He may be more concerned if you left without explaining anything.
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I've gotten used to protecting Leo during our work. It's hard to comprehend that I may turn against him.
PLEASE you're worth the wait!!!
I see. That's also understandable.
But things will be easier to handle if your friend knows what to expect.
I'm guessing that he isn't the type to hold these things against you.
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Sorry. This is rare for me. The answer is clear, yet I'm dragging my feet. For a world less chaotic than what I'm used to, I've felt the most conflicted here.
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he's glad Zed isn't isn't around to see how his expression softens; this is so relatable that it's almost funny. ]
No need to apologize.
If anything, you're cautious because you don't want to make a mistake.
This is important to you, isn't it?
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Better than drowning his woes in alcohol.]That's correct. Leo is a good friend, and I'd hate to slip up. He's capable in his own ways, but he's not a fighter. I hope similar misfortunes don't befall you and your friends here. It's frustrating, to say the least.
I've started saving up for a sailboat since I'm rarely in my apartment. An additional bonus may be as a getaway from people during the duration of my moonblessing.
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Trust me, I believe when you say that you'd rather not run into your acquaintances during the moons. And that providing an explanation is difficult.
My situation is less inconvenient than yours, but it's still unpleasant— I understand not wanting to burden others with it.
Your solution is fine.
But, again. It would be better to let your friend know, first.
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The cards this world has dealt is certainly not in our favor. However, if I had to choose between blood-lust or sexual urges, I'd choose the latter. I'd much rather have sexual partners than to inflict needless violence upon others. More unfortunate that I'll fall away from Master's ideals with either course.
Yes, that will be the plan once I've acquired it or another place to take off to. [Exiling himself is fiiiiine.]
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[ it takes a bit of time before the next text follows; it's obvious that Barnaby had to think before he sent it out. ]
You're not obligated in any way to take my advice,
but please make sure to let someone know before you leave, and after you come back.
And if your Master's ideals don't apply here, I wouldn't let it bother you too much.
Then again, I don't mean to pry. Please feel free to disregard this if I have.
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I'll certainly take your advice for notifying others. I would not want anyone to think I've abandoned them. As for the other, I must think on it. I understand what you mean by it, but it fundamentally questions my dedication to him.
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instinctively, he thinks "if this is enough for your master to question your dedication to him, he doesn't deserve your dedication", but he can appreciate that this is a personal issue that he's still working through, and that he's projecting.
hm. ]
Thank you for listening.
At any rate, if you want to vent some steam or use your frustration in a productive way, you know how to reach me.
I've yet to run into a sparring partner as helpful as you, after all.
You said your friend's name was 'Leo', right? I'll keep that in mind, too.
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No, thank you for the advice.
I can say the same for you. I'd be more than happy to help you however I can, that includes sparring as well.
Yes. Leonardo Watch. You might see him with Sonic. [Of course Zed has a picture of the pair to send over.]
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I've been managing, but I'll keep it in mind.
Though, my moon seems to be less aggressive. There should be no reason for me to bother you.
I see. If I ever see him, I'll make sure to look out for him if you're otherwise occupied.